But…do I?

Friday, one of my best friends married the love of his life. Seeing them celebrate their step into holy matrimony made me think, Where is my happily ever after?

In 2013 I met my significant other while taking classes at a local community college. Five years late, we’re parents and simply stuck into a routine. As working parents know, it’s very easy to fall into a pattern as the days go by in the blink of an eye but I had goals. I wanted to have my bachelors degree by 25, Married by 28, and children around 30. Life doesn’t always go as planned so it went more like college dropout by 21, child by 24 and no direction in life. Usually, it takes no more than a good episode of ‘Say Yes to the Dress’ for me to begin planning my perfect wedding. But this time was different. I asked myself “Is marriage really for you?”.

My parents, though highly disfunctional, have been married for over 40 years. Growing up, I was apart of a close knit family so all I know is the strong marriage dynamic. My significant other, on the opposite end of the spectrum, lived in a home where his parents were never together, though they are married. His father is Mexican, believing that a man can do as he pleases, with whom he pleases while his wife raises the children and struggles with mental health problems among other things; the typical machismo. Until we started seeing each other, he’d never thought about getting married; marriage does not work!

I love my significant other but when it comes to making me a priority, he falls short. I’m not one to make excuses so I won’t start now. He takes care of his mom who suffers from a number of mental health issues in addition to ulcerative colitis and osteoporosis. She also speaks very limited English, doesn’t know how to drive, and is separated from his father. When we first got together I knew this was the situation. It wasn’t so bad because I had my own apartment while he held a place for him and his mom, though he was at my place majority of the time. Life got rough and I ended up losing my apartment and was forced to move in with them. It wasn’t until then I began to see the true hierarchy in our new family.

My mother in law is Queen Elizabeth on steroids. When she says jump, he asks how high. At first, I felt bad for her. Then I realized, she is a demanding B-I-T-C-H sometimes. It’s not her that’s the problem ultimately, it’s her son. He forgets everyone and everything when his mom calls upon him, which is more often than not. Even after we had our baby, it turned into having two babies.

GOD! WHEN DOES IT STOP!

I reached a breaking point when I lost a much-needed job because he wanted me to choose to help take her to her doctor appointments. Major bummer especially with a preemie infant. I bit the bullet. I declined the job offer. Did that get me any recognition or brownie points? No sir. It was the beginning of my depression; depression that lasted for two years, on and off.

My moment of liberation was re-enrolling into college. I’ve been taking college classes since I was 15 years old but I have NEVER declared a major. I boasted to my family over Thanksgiving dinner 2009 about how I was a pre-med biology student, I was going to be a neurologist. STRAIGHT PAID! BIG BILLS ONLY! Little did I know, three semester later I would receive a certified letter from the Dean of my college informing me that due to subpar grades I’d lost my financial aid and I was being put on academic suspension aka getting kicked out of college. I had failed.

Six years later, I find myself at the precipice of nursing school. I met with a counselor at my local community college who informed me that I only need to take four classes before applying to the nursing program. Taking all of those classes in high school really paid off for me in the end, especially since my math requirement was met by a class that I took in 10th grade. Before applying to the program, I must complete Chemistry, Anatomy and Physiology, Microbiology, and English; the mountain in the distance was a hill.

My focus since has been on self-growth, which is hard when you are in a serious relationship. I am important. How will my daughter ever understand the importance of being an independent strong woman if I can’t do it myself? With this came with many thoughts, including property ownership. I’m not currently married, my career is about to take front seat next to my daughter, of course.

Does that leave room for marriage? The horse and carriage? Am I becoming one of those progressive, feminist that neglects the home for the advancement of her career, or so the story goes? No. I’m improving myself for my childs future. 

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Dust Yourself Off

By Jenna

I have a problem. I am a sugar junkie. I like sweet foods. When I am craving sweets, I’m usually craving chocolate. This week I satisfied my chocolate craving by making avocado brownies. Oh man, were they delicious! I made a double batch because I had already mashed up two avocados instead of the one needed for the recipe. I also had used a base recipe which endured multiple changes. Coconut oil is out as a fad and I am using real butter in my cooking when I’m not using another oil. I also had to swap sugars for raw sugar and honey, instead of the called for maple syrup. These changes amounted to a decadent fudgy brownie. They also made sure my already sugar laden treat was even more sinful! I baked the brownie in a bundt cake pan because it is easier to cut up and serve to others.

 

I didn’t make it so far as to serve my creation with my family though. I ate almost a half the brownies on the first day!! That evening I started my spiral into shame and guilt. I had let myself slip up on food and exercise, and my body is paying the price. I fell off the wagon. I am tired, sluggish, and overall lazy. I am trying to get rid of the rest of my indica too so I can get to the dispensary for sativa. I had gotten some Skywalker because I embrace my geeky side rather than remembering I get mad munchies with indica. I gained a whopping 5 pounds back that I had worked hard to lose.

So, today is a new day! I have a plan to getting back on track.

Step 1: Medicate (Aka get HIGH!)

Of course you know that sativa strains can assist you with weight loss! The sativa helps suppress my appetite. Mostly out of coincidence and some planning, I often wait to cook and eat until after I’ve smoked. I don’t feel the pangs of hunger which drive me to reach for a less than healthy snack.

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Step 2: Throw out junk food

I have thrown out the last ⅕ of the still yummy avocado brownie. It hurt to throw that last bit of brownie out instead of eating the deliciousness, but eating it would push me back another day. I also threw out Snack Crate leftovers, more on that in another post maybe. I’m proud of myself that I got all the junk snacks that don’t provide nutrition. There were a few things I kept though. I kept crackers, easy Mac, ice pops, and a little gummy candy because my kids or husband eat those. I don’t typically eat those items, even during my munchie times. While I’m writing this post I’m munching on cucumber with the kiddos.

 

Step 3: Meal Plan

Food is the key to successful weight loss and a healthy body. To that extent, so is a plan for what you are going to eat. When you have a plan for a healthy meal you are more likely to execute that plan. Defrost things a day or two in advance. Use the calendar on your phone to track what you are doing throughout the day. This will let you plan healthy snacks instead of rushing to grab fast food because you and your kids are starving! I have seen the bins in the fridges with the snacks and meals set aside, but those always seem to take a lot of space. Instead, I leave the snacks that my kids, 2 and 1 years old, can grab and eat them without me fearing their quantity or messiness. I don’t plan meals more than a week in advance because life changes too much. I use a weekly whiteboard from the dollar section at Target.

 

Step 4: MyFitnessPal

I have learned that I am most in control of myself when I am accountable for what I eat. Even when I eat the same thing every morning, actually logging the food has helped keep me in the habit of logging my food for lunches and dinners. It also helps that I can simply scan the barcode and the nutrition and serving size is added for me. I can also track my weight loss and goals with the app.

 

Step 5: Water

A healthy body starts with what you put inside. I don’t drink enough water, period. I haven’t tried to do the water challenges. This is what I am working on doing today. I’m not a fan of carrying around a gallon of water with me, but I’m at home most of the time. I have a 24 oz Contigo bottle that helps me keep track. If I can drink a minimum of two per day I’m good. If I can drink 3 a day I’m hitting my “recommended amount”. One thing I am doing different is adding fruit and veggies to my water. My favorite foods to add are lemon, mint, cucumber, and chili powder. (Not all at once).

 

Step 6: Exercise

A short 30 minute, high intensity workout is all I need to get my body rebooted. I need a fast exercise to restart and boost my metabolism. I have a short workout that can be done in 30 minutes and gets my heart rate going. It is primarily body weight exercises that require me to use multiple muscle groups so I can get back on track.

 

Here I go, it’s time to jump back onto that fitness wagon. Once I get my routine started up again, I will feel stronger, more alert, more active, and most of all healthier! Got any questions or comments? We want to hear from you!

 

To Smoke or Not to Smoke? That is the Question By Leigh

One of the first things I do in the morning is smoke a bowl. I prefer some good sativa to cup of coffee any day. Some feel that cannabis can be counterproductive, making you lazy. For me, it helps to get my creative juices flowing. Moms know, balancing home and social life while working full time is nearly impossible but we do it daily. Luckily for me, I work for a company that is 420 friendly. It changes the boss-employee dynamic when you can step outside with your boss for a nice smoke break without the typical repercussions.

Unfortunately, not all my friends are as 420 friendly as my boss and CAN’T STAND that I smoke. Recently my bff brought up the idea of me quitting, even though I smoke to support my mental and physical wellbeing. She is from Indiana, where cannabis is still considered to be a drug by majority of the population. My inner hippy immediately screamed “CHILL MAN!” when I heard the words “It makes me sad that you do drugs” cross her lips. She was kidding but I know some part inside of her felt that way.


On top of that, I have one parent that loves cannabis just as much as I do while the other thinks it’s disgusting. My dad aka my bestie, is a huge weed head…like old school, strictly joints kind of guy. He’s smoked my entire life. That’s probably why he could tolerate me through puberty, high school, and college, even when it didn’t go as well as expected (Thanks Dad!). My mother on the other hand is a stickler, who doesn’t really like anything that makes me happy. She used to be the cool mom that would jam to ‘I Get Around’ by Tupac when I was a kid. The mom that would dance so hard in the car it felt like we were at the epicenter of an earthquake that only we could feel. But I guess life and age sucks your soul out because that was the past, for sure! Anyways, it sucks to go to see your parents and there’s a constant tension about the forbidden grass. One mention will change a great evening to hell on earth.


Sometimes I feel like I’m torn between the people that I love and the plant that I love. I don’t see me making a lifestyle change soon but DAMN GINA! It would be way easier to slow down without the excess mental stress. With the change from strictly medicinal to recreational coming very soon in California, Cannabis is becoming widely accepted. Making it easier for Cannamommy’s like myself and Jenna to share our everyday lives, proving that you can be productive while high.

Please share your thoughts in the comments. Try to keep it positive but be honest. Tell us about your experiences in other states. We’d love to hear from our fans. #its420somewhere on Instagram! Tell your friends about us! Spread the movement!


                                                       Leigh



Mango High By Jenna

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The short answer, yes. Long answer, with cool details, is that it is a neat chemical reaction with the THC. When you eat mango the terpenes go to the bloodstream where it meets and interacts with THC. For my experiment, I ate the mango before smoking and took a few bites after too. With all Mexican flair and love of snacks, I made my testing of mango and THC a snack occasion! I shared the snack with my family so portions were smaller for me. Plus, this snack fits with my health goals in being low calorie and low carbohydrate.

 

Ingredients:

¼ cup mango

¼ cup jicama

⅓ cup cucumber

A quick squeeze of lime

A dash of Tajin seasoning (to taste)

2 Tbs. Chamoy snack seasoning

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Directions: Using a knife and cutting board, cut the mango, jicama, and cucumber to approximately equal sizes. You can dice it or Julienne the fruit? Arrange the fruit in a bowl or on a plate. Squeeze about ¼ of a lime on the fruit. Sprinkle Tajin seasoning then the Chamoy. Enjoy your spicy sweet treat! It is actually very low in calories too!

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Nutrition: (This is what matters to me because the calorie and carbohydrates are the restrictions and requirements in my diet.) The mango is the most calorie laden at 25 calories and it has 6.2g of carbs. The Jicama is 11 calories with 2.6g of carb. Cucumber has 3 calories and .6g of carbs. The Chamoy has 25 calories and 4g of carbs,1g of fat, and 1g of protein. A teaspoon of the Tajin is 8 calories and only 1.6g of carb. The lime amount is so small is only 2 calories at .8g of carb. Together, the calorie count is 74 calories and only 15.8 carbohydrates!!! Woot for this as a munchie snack!

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Once the mango was happily consumed, I stepped aside to smoke this beautifully packed bowl! It was a little Sonoma with some Sour OG sprinkled on top. My high was excellent, not too far above average that I was lost, but enough to heighten the living world around myself. Next time, I will experiment with more mango. Maybe I will make it into a Mango and Cannabis smoothie? Until next time!

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